Life: Oceanside

Friday, October 10, 2014

The Happiest Reason To Feel Like Crap

So I am convinced of 3 things so far in this pregnancy....

First, my baby is going to have one heck of a complexion, because it has stolen all of my acne free skin and replaced it with the skin of a 13 year old pubescent teenage boy.

Second, my child is probably going to come out with a six pack as I am 90% sure it is running marathons in my uterus all day long because by the time 2:30 pm hits, I have absolutely NO energy left.
My bed time has drastically declined from a 10:30-11:00pm-ish setting to about 7:00 pm, if I am lucky.
My DVR is filled with unwatched prime time favorites of mine as I cannot stay awake long enough after work to watch nor catch up on them.

and lastly this sweet baby of mine is going to be one heck of a creative being as it has now inherited every single ounce of creativity that lives within my body.
Thus the reason this blog has almost been condemned due to non occupancy lately.

I honestly love this little being with all of my heart and soul, but pregnancy is rough.
I am sick, and when I am not sick, I am tired, and when I am not tired, I am resting from being sick and tired.
 The closer I get to my second trimester the more I feel myself, which I am very excited about.
I think the thing I miss the most is this space and being able to come here every day and share my feelings. I miss the daily community and keeping up with all of my favorite friends. Sometimes I go days without even checking my instagram, which feels like I have fallen in to a dark hole. I truly do miss all of you, and really miss catching up on all the wonderful things going on in your lives.

I have spent the last few days debating if I even wanted to come back to the blog,  I wasn't sure if anyone would want to read now that I am pregnant, as that is what most of my content is now going to surround. I realized that I am sorry but I am not sorry to say that this will be a blog about building a family, learning to become a mommy, and of course our beautiful miracle.
Through my blogging I have focused on fashion, marriage, and thousands of other topics but now it is one big exciting topic and I really was worried how people would react to reading on a repetitive subject. Than I truly realized that those that I would want to read this blog will stay around, and those that decide to move on I am okay with that too.
This is who I am now, and I am going to share every exciting moment. So one day my child can look back at how exciting we were for their arrival and from every moment on after they enter our world.

We'll see if this creative, active, and beautiful baby allows me to return on Monday, until than I am going to try my damnedest to catch up on all your beautiful faces because as I have stated about 5 times in this post I miss the heck out of all of you!

Friday, September 26, 2014

Third Time Is a Charm

First off thank you SO SO SO much for all your warm wishes and sweet words. We could not be any more blessed with the best people in our lives and on this blog.

Now that the cat is out of the bag; and our secret is out we can share a little more of our "story"

First off  I have wanted to be a mom like, my whole entire life. When P and I got married I was ready to become parents the day after we said "I do" but P had a little more of a stable head on his shoulders and stated we should probably get all our ducks in a row before we decided we were truly ready for a baby..
After P graduated school this June and received an amazing job offer we really were exactly where we wanted to be in our lives and the only thing left on our "want" list as to start a family.

I began tracking my cycle immediately after we came to our decision and we began trying. I had my heart set on getting pregnant before I went to visit home in July because I really wanted to be able to tell my family that we were having a baby in person, but when I took that first test that first month I was devastated to find out that we were not successful.  It's crazy how broken hearted I was to find out I wasn't pregnant. It was like losing something I never had. I became extremely discouraged but stated we would try again next month.

When the next month rolled around we did everything we were supposed to and I read more articles on fertility than any crazy person and we tried once again. I tested, and tested, and tested, until the day my period arrived. We were not pregnant, again.

I began to think something was wrong with me, it should be easy? We were doing EVERYTHING right. How come it wasn't working? I started to think of all the women who were trying for 6 months, 12 months, years and years...I couldn't believe how heartbroken I was after 2 months of being unsuccessful. I truly had a new place in my heart for all those amazing women out there who do this month after month.

When we tried for the third month I stopped obsessing over my cycle, and decided I would take a time out from being so "crazy" I was sick of being let down by my body and I really just wanted to take a break from it all.

A few weeks later while at Target I saw that they had their pregnancy tests on sale, I decided to throw a few boxes in my cart and make my way home.
When I arrived at home I thought "hell, why not...I'll take a test" before I could place the test down on the counter I could see the little plus sign looking back at me.....
I was in awe.
I shook the test about 30 times..and made myself really look at it.
I didn't want to be seeing something just because I was making myself see it.

but there it was...
We were having a baby! 

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Writing for Two

Oh my gosh, I almost forgot the password to my blogger account. I cannot believe how LONG it has been since I have signed in to write on this little space.

thank you to all of  the worried texts from all of you asking if I am okay, since I have been quite MIA from all social media accounts, and let's face it I have almost fallen off the face of the earth.

I promise it was for a very very good reason....
See, I have this little "thing" that has recently entered my life that has made me extremely sick, extremely tired, and extremely excited...

Porter and I are VERY happy to announce that not only am I coming back to the blog, but I'll be
"writing for two"

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