I Run for More Than Just To Be Sexy...

So as I was doing my 30 minute cardio workout yesterday I was at that 25 minute mark and so tired and was about to just cut my run short by 5 minutes, I mean, I already did 25 minutes right? Just as I was about to quit the song "Home" by Phillip Phillips came on my Pandora, as the words started flowing I realized I don't think any other song has made me want to push myself harder.

When I am running, I am thinking. 100% all the time. I am thinking about the wedding, I am thinking about my marriage, I am thinking about my job, I am thinking about my dogs, I am thinking about my parents.

My mind is a 1000 different places but it's the one time where even though I am in a crowded room, I feel completely alone with my thoughts, and I love it.

As I continued to listen to the words It just kept bringing back life memories from each line.

"hold on to me as we go, as we roll down this unfamiliar road"

Porter and I  have been inseparable since we first met. We have had some pretty scary, rough, and crazy times. Things both of us have never experienced in life or in love, and I love that we have each other to hold on to. He's my rock. and my world.

"Just know your not alone, I am going to make this place your home"

When I moved to Florida I knew nobody, except my grandparents. I was just hoping that this is where I was meant to be and hoping to find myself here. Porter showed me life again, he always let me know he was there if I needed ANYTHING, and he 100% made this place and him my home.


"Settle down, it will all be clear. Don't pay no mind to the demons they fill you with fear"

I can't stress how important this next line is. my life was so high strung in SO many ways in the year before Porter. I was always running, I was always fearing the worst, I never let my guard down, I thought everyone was out to get me, and that life was NEVER going to go my way. When I decided to move to Florida, when I made the choice to let go of all my fears and finally just live, everything made sense. Everything was right. My negatives became positives, and my glass was always half full.

 "The trouble it might drag you down, if you are lost you can always be found."  

I was lost for a while, but I was found, and the person who found me was....Me.

By the time I was done my 30 minutes were up, and I left he gym feeling refreshed not only physically but mentally.

I know a lot of people love the high volume, up beat songs to work out too, but I LOVE inspirational songs. My head is so clear and when I look at how far I've come, it always just makes me want to push harder, and never give up.