Life: Oceanside: Worst Blogger Of The Year Award

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Worst Blogger Of The Year Award

Let's just start with my anxiety is through the roof today.
I wasn't planning on posting, because I didn't feel like I had much to write about. Life has been so hectic lately that my creative outlook has taken a backseat to all the other events going on around me...
and I hate it.

This blog is my heart and soul, I have put so much of myself in to it in the past 2 years, and I have made a tremendous amount of friends. Friends, who have more turned in to family.

Yet I find myself thinking if I want to keep it lately?
Again, I hate it.

I am questioning if this blog is fitting in to my life anymore. When I first started it I was new to Florida, did not know anyone and had all day everyday to write, and it was the perfect outlet for me in so many different ways. Yet, here we are a couple years of hard work down the road and I find myself questioning if I want to keep my blog.

I feel horrible because my blogger interaction has been 1%. There are so many posts I am behind on, big things I am missing about my best friends,  and more importantly not having the amount of time for my readers and sponsors that I should. Should I still be doing this?
Woah, Hallie.
Stop, and take a step back.

"YOU ARE NOT QUITTING THIS BLOG", says my heart.

I cannot quit this place. This place of freedom of speech, this place of wonderful overwhelming support. This place where great friends were made, and new ones in the future will probably arise. This is a place that holds the most "me". This is the place where all of my feelings have been documented, some of which I will want to keep forever, some of which I wish were not there.
But they are ME, and this blog needs me, just as much as I need it.

Mellow dramatic much? Yes, but as a blogger reading this post I am sure you have had this same struggle whatever the circumstances might be. Do I want to keep this blog?
We hate when it becomes a chore, and not a hobby. We hate when it feels like a job, and not an extra curricular activity. We start to question everything about it.
Which is where I stand with it right now.

This is where the anxiety sets in. My head is telling me I can't do this anymore, I don't have the time, but my heart is telling me that I CANNOT say goodbye.
So I will do as the world says, and follow my heart.

I am taking the weekend to get back in to my creative mindset. For our anniversary this year we decided to stay home, relax, and keep it simple. Just spending time doing things we love together, and relaxing and spending "me" time in the things we love most as well.

Come Monday, I will get out of this month long blogging funk I have been lying in and I will kick my own butt by proving that this blog is NEEDED in my life.
Isn't it crazy how the ones we always want to prove wrong are ourselves?
Our minds are a battlefield sometimes, but our hearts are the fighters.

If you have stuck around through this post, thank you.
If you have stuck around through the month of boring posts, thank you even more.

MY blog is making the lifestyle change now. #lohappyhealthyme
Happy Healthy Blog.

and I can't wait to catch up on ALL of you over the weekend, and answer the emails that have been so rudely gone unanswered in my inbox. For that I am truly sorry.



Big things are a'coming, and I hope you'll stick around.




20 comments:

  1. I don't think you should have to apologize! We all go through things outside of the blog works so I am sure everyone understands. We may miss having you around daily but that makes each post that much more enjoyable. Have a great anniversary weekend love! Xo

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  2. girl we all get like this you deserve to step back and just take a break be it a few days, a week or even a month, your loyal readers will ALWAYS be here no matter what!!!

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  3. I am sure everyone has felt this way from time to time...If you still love it, do it! Even if you can only write 1 day a week. You can always do more when you can. xo

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  4. I totally hear you. I go for like a month without blogging and then I'm blogging every 2 days and then I get writers block and can't think of a damn thing to say. I think that's just how it goes, and we understand that. If you decided to quit it, we understand, if not, we understand. :) Sending some love!

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  5. Hello,

    I must say that I feel this way right now. This post just took the words out of my mouth. I don't have a lot of followers or comments but I write for me and my family so that is okay! I just came back to blogging after not blogging for a whole year. I am pretty much starting over again.

    Anyways, I am a new follower. I just saw your guest post on Colorful Commotion which I am also a new follower too.

    Can't wait to read more,

    Lyndsey
    www.footballandglitter.blogspot.com

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  6. you have to realize that people understand. everyone goes through hard times, busy times and times when they just cant post or give it their all. we totally understand!

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  7. You love writing and you love blogging so maybe the thing that is making you feel like you want to quit is the expectations you feel you should be meeting in order to blog. Strip all of that away and just leave yourself with the actual blogging and it really is what you make of it. If that means you don't do sponsors and post only once a week then that's an option; unless that is just not the kind of blogger you want to be. If you can separate what you think you should be doing as a blogger from just blogging that might help. Sometimes I wonder if I still want to blog but I know I'd be sad if I didn't have this space to come to whenever I want.

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  8. Once I realized that the people I truly love interacting with don't hate when I skip a day (and probably don't notice/care), it took a lot of pressure off! You don't have to apologize, you don't have to write everyday, you don't HAVE to do anything. It's a blog, not a job. We will all still be here whenever you post. That's the beauty and flexibility of blogland! :) I can promise you there isn't someone out there who is like "Dammit Hallie! Why didn't you post today? You suck!" We're still here and ready to read whenever you're ready to write <3

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  9. You definitely shouldn't have to feel like you have to apologize for letting your blog take a back seat. Life happens sometimes. That is one of the things I have loved about my blog... it is always there for me when I decide to come back to it. I started my blog as a creative outlet for me... a place for me to organize my thoughts, share recipes, write book reviews, and keep my loved ones up on my life....and if I just don't feel like writing well then I don't. This year I am trying to make more of a commitment to it and am trying to write more, but on the days I feel like I have nothing to say, well I just don't write anything. But you will once again figure out the balance that you need... I have faith in you!!

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  10. I gave up my lifestyle blog because it made me too anxious. I felt like too much was expected of me. I hated the judgmental people and the drama that sometimes came with it. I had to leave it behind. It was much more a burden for me than a joy. But, I knew I'd miss interacting with my blog friends...so I still read my friend's blogs 2-3 times a week. I still use Twitter like crazy to keep up with them. And, I have my photography blog, still. I'm glad you are keeping your blog, but even if you chose to give it up, there are plenty of ways to stay in contact with all of your blog friends! :)

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  11. It's YOUR blog so whatever you would like to post is YOUR opinion!! Don't apologize :o)
    heartsnstuff143.blogspot.com

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  12. It happens to all of us and like so many others have said, there's no need to apologize! :)

    Hope you and P have a wonderful anniversary! <3 xoxo

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  13. I think that you definitely need to take a step back, give yourself time and release some of the pressure. Don't pressure yourself to post everyday. Follow your heart, but if you stay, do what you need to do to make it less of a chore and more of the outlet and comforting place that it once was and should be!

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  14. I think you should just do you, girl. If you don't feel like blogging, then don't! I hate the pressure there is to keep up with a posting schedule... but in reality, these are our spaces. We should be able to do what we want! :)

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  15. Take your time figuring out what you need, we will be here! I figure it is easier to blog regularly because it sort of gets your "writing muscle" flexed and it gets easier and easier. Blogging is hard though, and sometimes breaks are needed;)

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  16. I hear ya. I have neglected my blog quite a bit. i started blogging when I was figuring my life out. now that I am starting to get a sense of my life and I'm busy living it, I find I spend less time on the blog. BUT I don't want to give it up yet either !

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  17. DOn't feel to bad. I am currently doing the same thing.

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  18. I feel the same way about my blog! I feel like my life is changing and my blog has too, but I'm just not sure if I want to keep it up right now. It's such a tough choice though!! I don't want to give up the friendships!

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  19. Welcome to my world! I love the people I met via blogging (esp you, my dear) but I also love some of the time I have back from not blogging. There's no pressure to blog every day. If you do it when you want to do it, it can only be a positive experience. XO

    Jill
    Classy with a Kick

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  20. I totally feel you! I have kinda been in a funk myself lately with my blog. & kinda with just life in general. I don't think you should apologize for your life getting busy. I think every blogger goes through ups & downs! But I do love reading your blog! So I definitely will still be here to read when you post :)

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