I wasn't planning on posting, because I didn't feel like I had much to write about. Life has been so hectic lately that my creative outlook has taken a backseat to all the other events going on around me...
and I hate it.
This blog is my heart and soul, I have put so much of myself in to it in the past 2 years, and I have made a tremendous amount of friends. Friends, who have more turned in to family.
Yet I find myself thinking if I want to keep it lately?
Again, I hate it.
I am questioning if this blog is fitting in to my life anymore. When I first started it I was new to Florida, did not know anyone and had all day everyday to write, and it was the perfect outlet for me in so many different ways. Yet, here we are a couple years of hard work down the road and I find myself questioning if I want to keep my blog.
Stop, and take a step back.
"YOU ARE NOT QUITTING THIS BLOG", says my heart.
I cannot quit this place. This place of freedom of speech, this place of wonderful overwhelming support. This place where great friends were made, and new ones in the future will probably arise. This is a place that holds the most "me". This is the place where all of my feelings have been documented, some of which I will want to keep forever, some of which I wish were not there.
But they are ME, and this blog needs me, just as much as I need it.
Mellow dramatic much? Yes, but as a blogger reading this post I am sure you have had this same struggle whatever the circumstances might be. Do I want to keep this blog?
We hate when it becomes a chore, and not a hobby. We hate when it feels like a job, and not an extra curricular activity. We start to question everything about it.
Which is where I stand with it right now.
This is where the anxiety sets in. My head is telling me I can't do this anymore, I don't have the time, but my heart is telling me that I CANNOT say goodbye.
So I will do as the world says, and follow my heart.
I am taking the weekend to get back in to my creative mindset. For our anniversary this year we decided to stay home, relax, and keep it simple. Just spending time doing things we love together, and relaxing and spending "me" time in the things we love most as well.
Come Monday, I will get out of this month long blogging funk I have been lying in and I will kick my own butt by proving that this blog is NEEDED in my life.
Isn't it crazy how the ones we always want to prove wrong are ourselves?
Our minds are a battlefield sometimes, but our hearts are the fighters.
If you have stuck around through this post, thank you.
If you have stuck around through the month of boring posts, thank you even more.
MY blog is making the lifestyle change now. #lohappyhealthyme
Happy Healthy Blog.
and I can't wait to catch up on ALL of you over the weekend, and answer the emails that have been so rudely gone unanswered in my inbox. For that I am truly sorry.
Big things are a'coming, and I hope you'll stick around.