Between Tuesdays post, and your sweet words on my hard day yesterday.
I could never thank any of you for the overwhelming love and support you fill me with everyday.
I am so lucky to have you all in my life, even if it's through a computer screen, an instagram photo, or a tweet.
Having the thought of having all of you there and supporting me in my good days, and bad days is something that is so calming.
I am so so so thankful.
As most of you know, yesterday was my grandfather's (would have been) birthday. It's one of the few days per year where I am reminded that he is no longer with me, nor the rest of my family.
but in the past 5 years that he has been gone, these days come on easier. Memories turn from tears to smiles, and though I miss him more than I could ever describe in words, I am content with the legacy he left behind, and the guidance he has installed in me.
Some days it's so hard to fathom that I have went 5 years without seeing his face, or how I can go for the next 55 years without even being able to say "Hi gramps" but than I remember that even though it's hard to swallow that I don't have all that time with him, I DID have 18 wonderful years with him by my side, and for that I will be forever thankful for.
Though he is gone I can feel him so much in certain situations. When I ask for an answer he always seems to show me the way, when I tell him I miss him and just need to know he's there, he always finds a way to say "hi". It's amazing how life, faith, and just believing that there is an amazing afterlife for our family members to go and spend eternity and wait for us to join them is so refreshing. I am happy he is happy, and he is proven that to me in small ways many of times.
The best part of my day yesterday was that my Gramps once again was the selfless man I knew and sent me some awesome news last night to celebrate HIS day! I can't share it now, and it will be a lot of work, but I have some great things coming, and an awesome opportunity coming my way.
|courtesy of AKA photographs|
Thanks Gramps, and Happy Birthday.
Heaven is a lucky lucky place.